Bipolar Signs…

If this were a criminal investigation, the research would be starting to reveal the truth. As I analyze the data and look at the evidence, a clearer picture is developing. In the daily, grind it out story of a life, are the signs one is expecting to discover.

People having a manic episode may: People having a depressive episode may:
  • Feel very “up,” “high,” or elated
  • Have a lot of energy
  • Have increased activity levels
  • Feel “jumpy” or “wired”
  • Have trouble sleeping
  • Become more active than usual
  • Talk really fast about a lot of different things
  • Be agitated, irritable, or “touchy”
  • Feel like their thoughts are going very fast
  • Think they can do a lot of things at once
  • Do risky things, like spend a lot of money or have reckless sex
  • Feel very sad, down, empty, or hopeless
  • Have very little energy
  • Have decreased activity levels
  • Have trouble sleeping, they may sleep too little or too much
  • Feel like they can’t enjoy anything
  • Feel worried and empty
  • Have trouble concentrating
  • Forget things a lot
  • Eat too much or too little
  • Feel tired or “slowed down”
  • Think about death or suicide

The source for the information above can be found here.

Now I know that we can read into a situation whatever we want. For example, this is a common practice found in say, Biblical theology. Talk to a number of different scholars or laymen and you’ll get just as many interpretations of what is being studied. I could make a similarly strong case for myself by relating experiences, feelings and emotions of my own.

The fact remains that Bipolar Disorder is a difficult criminal to get into custody and also prosecute. Partly because of the fact many consider it a medical issue, while others something completely opposite.

For me it is a perfect storm, partly circumstantial, and partly experiential. What I mean by that is that I believe there are multiple components to this problem. I know there is a medical treatment piece, but there is also my personal history and how it has influenced everything. From my sleep, growing suicidal imaginations, my difficulty dealing with work, relationships and even seeing my image in a mirror.

I go from extreme energy and elation to the depths of despair. It just isn’t normal.

So in the quest to find and apprehend this criminal, which has taken the better part of my life, the picture becomes more clear.

Right now I am in a “manic” phase, if you will. I thought I better write about it now because when I come down, I won’t want to do anything at all.


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