So today I continue my quest for mental health with another therapy session.
Today we are going to do something I have never done before, EMDR, or Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. Yeah, a lot of words there!
I really don’t know what to expect fully yet though I got a brief overview at my last appointment. I am usually pretty resistant to these kinds of things so I am going try to keep an open mind going in.
That’s one of my major weaknesses, trying new things to resolve my issues, because deep down I am coddling them. I do recognize this at least. How can I expect to make any progress if I am not open to something outside of my box? That’s part of my problem, with being here so long…I would rather accept myself as I am and live out my life in obscurity, than to be vigilant about things that could help me and break out!
Decades have worn a deep ditch of problems and childish reactions. I’m stuck in this round robin life. Dwelling on what was, looking back and never forward. I can barely see over the ridge I’ve worn in my brain.
Who knows, maybe todays session will allow the door of my mind to open just a crack and let some light in.
The Place to be Real 