There is something very important I need to say to my fellow survivors today. This following a harrowing 6 months of uncertainty, suicidal ideations, exhaustion, fear, and disbelief that I would ever come out the other side at all sane.
There is hope for all of us! I am living proof that you can sink almost to the gates of hell and still survive, and more.
Friday is my return to work and I can say I am looking forward to it. Months ago I didn’t know if I could ever work again, I was contemplating ending my own life on a daily basis. Wallowing in a pool of despair was my mood. A series of horrible choices had left me bankrupt of any reason to live.
Between out-patient treatment in a psychiatric hospital, therapy, psychiatric care and a fistful of medications the landscape began to slowly brighten. The dark nightmares and voices I had heard in the night were quieted. It was so gradual I could barely perceive when the turnaround began to take place.
Here is the kicker, it is important that you never give up! I saw therapists years ago as well as a psychiatrist but for me it took unplugging from life and prioritizing my health and recovery. Maybe that’s what you need, nothing is as important as getting yourself right!
Am I home free? No. I must continue treatment, taking my meds and focusing on the positive. I know that is what will get you beyond the place you cannot even envision right now.
always RISE…always!
Thank you for sharing your story, All the best to you for returning to work!
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