Feeling a little overwhelmed by it all. Life.
The sadness is churning inside me. So many emotions mixed together and swirling around.
The smallest responsibility causes me to become panicky. I have been fighting for a year to keep getting paid and I am exhausted by it.
Should I be better? Is there any way to know that? Have I succumbed to a sickness that will eventually take me away?
I don’t know how I have made it this far. How did I even hold a job? How did I work, let alone manage people? How did I complete any schooling?
My life came to a point and I shut down before I could implode. But I don’t feel the pressure easing, it’s still simmering, boiling below the surface.
I am sad today. I am alone and I choose to be. People cause me anxiety, discussions scare me. I just want to….no I just don’t want to…I don’t know what to think.