I am accepting this place I am in, slowly but surely. It’s OK; I find myself saying that a lot lately. Trying to force creative expressions other than writing here isn’t happening for me. I mean, I really want to but there is an actual physical reaction I have when attempting to create. It’s a kind of weakness that comes over me, a malaise if you will, and it is instantaneous.

I cannot force it or manufacture something that isn’t there in the first place. It’s OK.

If there indeed is a time and place for everything, my creativity and expression phase may have already come and gone. If that is the case I can accept that wholly and completely without regret. But just maybe there is more to come and it’s perfect time just hasn’t arrived.

I got to thinking about a word that says what I think is possible but not guaranteed. Emergence.

1. the process of coming into view or becoming exposed after being concealed.
“I misjudged the timing of my emergence”
Similar: disclosure, becoming known, coming to light, exposure, unfolding
2. the process of coming into being, or of becoming important or prominent.
“the emergence of the environmental movement”
Similar: appearance, arrival, coming, turning up, springing up



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