I haven't written in a very long time, in fact I let my subscription lapse and I am back to a basic blog. I figured why spend the money on something I am not using. So forgive this rather brief and unadorned update. I am numb. I live in a miasma of nothingness. I work, … Continue reading It Has Set In
It has been another long break from writing, just waiting on a reason to put something out there. It's time. I have worked the last five years for a company that deals with the public. Every day was a new challenge and truly never the same. I was in a management position and had, in … Continue reading Healthy Changes
The boy was confused, the man is defeated. The question that plagues me is whether it was my giving up or just me flat-out not having a chance from the start? The final result, either way you look at it is the same. I have become known as a person who gripes and complains but … Continue reading Confused
I am a man of many years now. I was born in the sixties and a teen in the seventies. I got married when I was in my late twenties and proceeded to hurtle through life like we all do. Before I knew it I had expended all my energy and not found what I … Continue reading I Can’t Believe
I have been off work for the last three weeks, and today is my last bit of freedom before returning. It has been a mental health vacation. No pay, just relief from the stresses of retail life in this Covid-infected year. Today I am taking inventory. How am I doing, really? Have I made progress … Continue reading Today
One of the byproducts of childhood sexual abuse is the self-care piece. It's paying attention to and investing in good health and practices. I am legendary for not taking care of myself, whether its minding what I eat and drink to simple health maintenance. Today I am living with a very specific issue and that … Continue reading Self-care Deficiencies
This year has two stories that have consumed the media, Coronavirus and George Floyd. Important, yes, but deserving of all the attention, no. You see, when you make something THE story you ignore many other important topics. For me it is childhood sexual abuse. This is an anathema for me that it goes unreported and … Continue reading The Latest News Cycle
It saps you of the strength to accomplish anything. Let alone get up off your back and try. I don't have the ability to say more, I am exhausted.
I have never abused drugs or alcohol and never intend too, but I sure would like to medicate these feelings away. If I had some positive thoughts it would be nice, something to look forward to but I don't. My life is pretty much behind me now. Maybe I should look at it like that...whats … Continue reading Don’t Wanna Feel
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