I have never abused drugs or alcohol and never intend too, but I sure would like to medicate these feelings away. If I had some positive thoughts it would be nice, something to look forward to but I don't. My life is pretty much behind me now. Maybe I should look at it like that...whats … Continue reading Don’t Wanna Feel
When the wounds are deep, no amount of getting away will fix the pain. This must be understood or triggers will be constantly ignited at every little thing. There is no escaping the injuries which lurk just below the surface. No comment is safe, no sunny day is immune. It is the curse of mental … Continue reading Not Safe
E x h a u s t e d
Running on empty, not enough in me to even write this post. I'll leave it there for now.
The Feel-good Comeback
I have been waiting a long time for something that happened today. In the back of my mind, biding my time for the comeback of someone who fell from grace, so to speak. When it finally came to be, my momentary joy was quickly squashed. Tiger Woods came all the way back and won The … Continue reading The Feel-good Comeback
Thrifting Therapy Tomorrow!
Join me!?! Works wonders for the mental health challenges one faces. Vinyl, cassettes, old boom boxes, old stereo components!!! It helps to have a simple hobby! Trust me on that!
7pm Time For Sleep
Depression creates a compulsion for additional sleep. I got up at 9 today and I am going down at 7pm. What's the point of staying up? There is none. I am over medicating with my sleeping pills. I just want to be knocked out. Talk to you tomorrow...maybe.
Time is Not a Healer
This is an old wives tale, I can assure you. Only those who have suffered immense levels of unforgiving pain can tell you this. Through the maze of memories, nightmares and unknowns some are lucky, but time is more of a curse than a healer. As you live year after year, time only compounds the … Continue reading Time is Not a Healer
Where Is the Justice?
Why do victims of violence have to get over stuff? Why are those who perpetrate violence getting away with it? This is the essence of my post today. Those who've gotten over something wonder why others continue to struggle with it. They can't understand why someone who has been severely traumatized won't let go. Here's … Continue reading Where Is the Justice?
My New Do
In honor of my arrival at psycho/inmate status, I have shaved all my hair off. This is me in acceptance of what life has become and always will be.