I was thinking today what I would call this journey I am on. Some days are actually OK, while many are depressing beyond belief. I'd rather not get out of beda lot of the time and I wouldn't turn down a get-out-of-life-free card either. The pendulum, though somewhat controlled by medications, still swings wide each … Continue reading I Have A Name For This Life
Join me!?! Works wonders for the mental health challenges one faces. Vinyl, cassettes, old boom boxes, old stereo components!!! It helps to have a simple hobby! Trust me on that!
As I said last night, I doubled up on my sleep med so I could just be out of it for a while. It backfired on me. Apparently when you do that it has two real effects... I became incredibly groggy to the point I could literally not even move I had such increased anxiety, … Continue reading That Didn’t Work So Well
Depression creates a compulsion for additional sleep. I got up at 9 today and I am going down at 7pm. What's the point of staying up? There is none. I am over medicating with my sleeping pills. I just want to be knocked out. Talk to you tomorrow...maybe.
This is an old wives tale, I can assure you. Only those who have suffered immense levels of unforgiving pain can tell you this. Through the maze of memories, nightmares and unknowns some are lucky, but time is more of a curse than a healer. As you live year after year, time only compounds the … Continue reading Time is Not a Healer
If someone you care about struggles with mental illness and/or is suicidal, have the courage to spend 45 minutes that could very well help save someones life. Film-maker Jazz Thornton recounts the last 24 hours of Jessica's life, speaking to those close to her to understand what her passing can teach us about suicide. Change … Continue reading Jessica’s Tree…A Story of Suicide, a Story of Hope
Why do victims of violence have to get over stuff? Why are those who perpetrate violence getting away with it? This is the essence of my post today. Those who've gotten over something wonder why others continue to struggle with it. They can't understand why someone who has been severely traumatized won't let go. Here's … Continue reading Where Is the Justice?
I made it through another day. Well, there is still another hour and fifty-six minutes. How can I sum up this day...hmm, surprising? Uneventful? Blasé? All of those. Probably the most interesting thing was a contact from someone I once knew. In fact the last time I heard from him he said he wanted to … Continue reading I Made It
In honor of my arrival at psycho/inmate status, I have shaved all my hair off. This is me in acceptance of what life has become and always will be.