I'm tired of languishing in this place of defeat. Bemoaning the mountain of crap that has piled on top of me, it's time to break out and fly!!! It's time to pursue my hearts desire and stop killing the vibe just as it gets started. I've learned a lot and I can put it to … Continue reading Time to hit the Starting Blocks
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Running on empty, not enough in me to even write this post. I'll leave it there for now.
Should I or shouldn’t I?
When I write it is problematic for me. It causes people to either freak out or say good job. This is my open journal of life, my thoughts, intentions, my failures and fears. I am going to take a break. When and if I feel it is time to return, I will. If not, good … Continue reading Should I or shouldn’t I?
The Curse of Ever Wandering
The story begins nowhere, travels to nowhere, and ends up nowhere. It's not that life isn't eventful it's just that everything is so useless and bears no repeating. This story begins in a small town of no worthy mention and will end in a non-desript location of no importance. This life, like all life will … Continue reading The Curse of Ever Wandering
Wearing Authenticity Proudly
First, confession time: I have found myself lingering at the well of authenticity without moving into the deeper heart change that precedes a holier lifestyle. I question myself first before you today. How am I becoming more like Christ? Am I willing to push through my pain to find my place in the church again? Am I willing to … Continue reading Wearing Authenticity Proudly
In your face Satan.. Its Celebration Time!
This week, I had the rare opportunity to share my personal story with a group of men, most of whom I did not know. I told them of all the mistakes I made, the willful disobedience and rebelliousness that infected my heart and how I eventually suffered complete and utter failure that reduced every hope and dream to a pile of … Continue reading In your face Satan.. Its Celebration Time!
Prayer and Presence
Prayer is a powerful tool in the arsenal of the Christian. I will not waste my precious few words here disputing that truth, that would be futile. However, I do want to challenge us in our thinking to go beyond the posture of supplication into bold and energetic action. The Holy Spirit is our intercessor with the … Continue reading Prayer and Presence
More Than You Can Handle Alone
Having an unpopular approach to the problem of porn in the church has become a badge of honor for me. Complacency and whispers aren't acceptable in my world anymore. Though I spent the better part of my church life doing everything I could do to be accepted, appreciated and respected, I am no longer bound by those … Continue reading More Than You Can Handle Alone
Finally accepting my reality, and that’s a good thing!
(For specific information about childhood sexual abuse, its repercussions and counseling practices, see the following link: The Long-Term Effects of Childhood Sexual Abuse: Counseling Implications ) It's not that I haven't been aware of the results of long-term sexual abuse, it's just that I have had this unrealistic expectation to be free from the adverse … Continue reading Finally accepting my reality, and that’s a good thing!