It's been a tough road. I have experienced a lot of financial challenges and mental ones that had me sell off all the instruments of value I owned. I used to be big into music at church, that's the only place I ever wanted to play. I had a few of them, but the last … Continue reading I Miss My Violin
It was another memorable birthday as number 59 resulted in 2 cards received, my brother and my wife. I'm not surprised seeing that I have moved so much and left a bit of a trail of ugliness in my wake. Now that I have diagnosis' that pinpoint the mental illnesses I am confronting, I don't … Continue reading Post-birthday Update
Have you ever felt completely hollow, like there is no one inside your body? It's as if you had vacated it. I have been forced out entirely but for the instinctive motor actions that keep this shell alive. Sleeping, eating, breathing all continue, but nothing else. This form is recognizable by others but I scarcely … Continue reading Empty
I have been waiting a long time for something that happened today. In the back of my mind, biding my time for the comeback of someone who fell from grace, so to speak. When it finally came to be, my momentary joy was quickly squashed. Tiger Woods came all the way back and won The … Continue reading The Feel-good Comeback
Alexandra Valoras was a straight-A student, class officer and robotics whiz. But her journals told a different story, with 200 pages of self-loathing and despair. CBS News senior national correspondent Jim Axelrod has her story. Only 5:41 long. Parents blindsided by daughters suicide hope her story helps others.
I write a lot, and I am all over the place emotionally, psychologically, so I thought it appropriate to keep it real for a few words. I feel I am fairly well-balanced today and not in a place to purely wax morbidly. My overall outlook is still in the negative. If it were shown in … Continue reading Personal Status Report
I have been doing some study the last few days about mental health, euthanasia and suicide. I am at a point of relative acceptance that there is an inevitability in me to take one of these roads in the future. I have a sense of futility about life at this point. I am not throwing … Continue reading That Nagging feeling
I was thinking today what I would call this journey I am on. Some days are actually OK, while many are depressing beyond belief. I'd rather not get out of beda lot of the time and I wouldn't turn down a get-out-of-life-free card either. The pendulum, though somewhat controlled by medications, still swings wide each … Continue reading I Have A Name For This Life
Join me!?! Works wonders for the mental health challenges one faces. Vinyl, cassettes, old boom boxes, old stereo components!!! It helps to have a simple hobby! Trust me on that!