Hope of Life

Therapy always brings something to the surface, whether unexpectedly to not. Some of that today was the concept that the justification for my existence cannot be successfully argued, that's a belief I have. I sit here a beaten and exhausted man. My will has been crushed by defeat after defeat, I no longer have the … Continue reading Hope of Life

Unexplainable

I walked past a picture of my wife and I after we were married, walking back up the aisle. Our faces gleaming in the joy and excitement of our union.¬†Only, when I look at that picture, it more often than not reminds me of all I have done wrong. Taunting me, telling me that I … Continue reading Unexplainable

N U M B

Why can I not feel some days? My mind goes fanatically wild, but at other times I am blank. Like today. The overwhelming nature of dealing with life creates a protection mechanism and I go into a silent running mode. Confronted with issues on a continual basis I start to shut down mentally and emotionally. … Continue reading N U M B

Slow Motion

I am sitting in my office and looking out the window at a mid-march Sunday that is overcast and bleak. Snow flakes begin to fall but not as they usually do, they seem to be almost a dream that is moving at half pace. I can watch single flakes hover in place, then move up … Continue reading Slow Motion