Is There Something I should Be Doing?

As always, this is my online journal, thoughts I have are processed in real-time between myself and whoever reads these posts. I just got home after dropping off my rent payment, stopping at a second hand store and putting some gas in the truck. As I was driving I went by a few churches and … Continue reading Is There Something I should Be Doing?

Wrapping Up

Tomorrow will be my 6th day in partial hospitalization, it will also be my last one, for this stint. The structure has helped, hearing the troubles of others has too. Group discussions have created a sense of purpose by opening up to one another. We are helping each other. There is more help among the … Continue reading Wrapping Up

When Will I Find It?

I've searched high and low, spent decades in looking for "it", still it eludes me like a sad joke. So I lift my head on another day like most of those before it with being able to somehow get out of bed and make even a little something out of this thing called life. Problem … Continue reading When Will I Find It?

Bipolar Signs…

If this were a criminal investigation, the research would be starting to reveal the truth. As I analyze the data and look at the evidence, a clearer picture is developing. In the daily, grind it out story of a life, are the signs one is expecting to discover. People having a manic episode may: People … Continue reading Bipolar Signs…

Together We Heal

I see books that espouse it and hear people say it, I have worked to re-frame my childhood to make sexual abuse seem less heinous, thereby removing the word and its connotation. I have even tried to ingest the old saying, "no matter how bad you have it, someone has it worse." Among those that share the same experience … Continue reading Together We Heal

The Invisible Wounds We Share

When I was a child, I was in the vicinity of someone who was burning out a wasp's nest in the ground. Thats how we did it back then, pour gasoline in there and light a match. Unfortunately, I was a little to close and several of the angry insects chased me down. To this day I … Continue reading The Invisible Wounds We Share

A Legacy of Tragedy

  Some say that it is best to focus on the ups and keep the downs to yourself. As a point of fact, I have had people tell me not to write the truth of life as I experience it, but apply a thick, sugary, candy-coating and be an illuminating ray of positivity and hope in the … Continue reading A Legacy of Tragedy