I'm tired of languishing in this place of defeat. Bemoaning the mountain of crap that has piled on top of me, it's time to break out and fly!!! It's time to pursue my hearts desire and stop killing the vibe just as it gets started. I've learned a lot and I can put it to … Continue reading Time to hit the Starting Blocks
Too Many Chances?
I think I know why I am in this deep depression that won't lift. In the grand scheme of things I could handle one or two major failings and not be stuck here. I mean everyone makes mistakes, everyone fails at something at some point, thats just life. I have had a lot of opportunities … Continue reading Too Many Chances?
Tomorrow will be my 6th day in partial hospitalization, it will also be my last one, for this stint. The structure has helped, hearing the troubles of others has too. Group discussions have created a sense of purpose by opening up to one another. We are helping each other. There is more help among the … Continue reading Wrapping Up
In the Balance
Three days into partial hospitalization and its the weekend, a couple days break then back into the gauntlet. I learned something today, I knew it all along but it was on full display and revealed before the cold, fluorescent light of a group therapy session. I am a man overcome with shame. A lifetime of … Continue reading In the Balance
The Feel-good Comeback
I have been waiting a long time for something that happened today. In the back of my mind, biding my time for the comeback of someone who fell from grace, so to speak. When it finally came to be, my momentary joy was quickly squashed. Tiger Woods came all the way back and won The … Continue reading The Feel-good Comeback
Time is Not a Healer
This is an old wives tale, I can assure you. Only those who have suffered immense levels of unforgiving pain can tell you this. Through the maze of memories, nightmares and unknowns some are lucky, but time is more of a curse than a healer. As you live year after year, time only compounds the … Continue reading Time is Not a Healer
Where Is the Justice?
Why do victims of violence have to get over stuff? Why are those who perpetrate violence getting away with it? This is the essence of my post today. Those who've gotten over something wonder why others continue to struggle with it. They can't understand why someone who has been severely traumatized won't let go. Here's … Continue reading Where Is the Justice?
The Curse of Ever Wandering
The story begins nowhere, travels to nowhere, and ends up nowhere. It's not that life isn't eventful it's just that everything is so useless and bears no repeating. This story begins in a small town of no worthy mention and will end in a non-desript location of no importance. This life, like all life will … Continue reading The Curse of Ever Wandering
Pornography and its Devastation-Two Former Porn Star’s share their Stories (video)
I thought these two short video's would provide us a look into a world that we haven't truly acknowledged. Maybe this enlightenment will be part of the reason we continue to work to eradicate porn from our lives. May the Holy Spirit help us to be strong and overcome in a world that continually attempts to deceive … Continue reading Pornography and its Devastation-Two Former Porn Star’s share their Stories (video)