I'm tired of languishing in this place of defeat. Bemoaning the mountain of crap that has piled on top of me, it's time to break out and fly!!! It's time to pursue my hearts desire and stop killing the vibe just as it gets started. I've learned a lot and I can put it to … Continue reading Time to hit the Starting Blocks
I am at a moment of truth for myself right now. In the wake of another blood test I am having some health problems that could prove to be extremely serious, even life threatening. I thought maybe there is something going on under unseen, I wondered aloud as to whether I had an answer. Still … Continue reading Know Thyself
How He Loves Today... today I was reminded of this song and the story behind it, I was moved again. I felt emotions I haven't for quite a while. You might even say that it inspired me to make a move back towards God. It's been some time since we've spoken. Please take the time … Continue reading A Story…How He Loves
Running on empty, not enough in me to even write this post. I'll leave it there for now.
I have been waiting a long time for something that happened today. In the back of my mind, biding my time for the comeback of someone who fell from grace, so to speak. When it finally came to be, my momentary joy was quickly squashed. Tiger Woods came all the way back and won The … Continue reading The Feel-good Comeback
This is my second blog post today. I have done nothing but watch YouTube videos and Netflix. Coming to face how complete the destruction is which I have wrought. There is no strength to pursue, no will to accomplish, no desire to chase, no song to sing, no light to my darkness, no hope to … Continue reading When You Are Crushed
It all runs together, the emotions and beliefs I direct toward myself. agony numb angry frustration fear failure contempt guilt shame frozen doubt anxiety worthless used embarrassed diluted hopeless abandoned unloved dirty spent loathing decomposing unfaithful untrustworthy stupid These words speak to me, swirling in the undercurrent of my mind. Beyond the Tinnitus ringing constantly … Continue reading Day to Day
Today, I heard a little piece on NPR about a zero carbon city. You know, all the imagination of a city and eventually a world free of all the demonized power we rely on today to survive. A future that exists currently and primarily in our minds, though we are making some minor strides toward … Continue reading Imagine a world..
Why is it that a psychiatrist you meet with for an hour, barely enough time to get the basics, tells you, I don't know if I can convince a short-term disability provider that you should receive continued benefits? Therapists are the same, they are so smart they can't wait to tell you you're OK, we … Continue reading Frustrated with Professionals and Everyone Else