I haven't written in a very long time, in fact I let my subscription lapse and I am back to a basic blog. I figured why spend the money on something I am not using. So forgive this rather brief and unadorned update. I am numb. I live in a miasma of nothingness. I work, … Continue reading It Has Set In
I haven't written anything much for the last month or more. The reason is pure depression. It's been a struggle for these last few weeks to the extent I am listless and fatigued beyond the ability to function normally. I am working though I have taken quite a bit of time off recently. Thats about … Continue reading Been Awhile
I recently had someone comment that my blog was disappointing because all I did was complain and offer no suggestions for resolution to issues. Let me state once more and make it very clear, this blog is my online journal. Period. It is not my goal or responsibility to provide solutions or deeply thought out … Continue reading Feedback Received
Right now, in our country, the debate is raging over who should be our next president. One of the most polarizing issues is based on the ever caustic arguments over abortion rights. Well, I am going to put a twist on this disagreement that you have never considered, and I am going to be very … Continue reading I Should Have Been Aborted
I write a blog and I have to admit it can be pretty negative. I am sixty years old and trying to do things the "nice" way seems to be a futile venture. Admittedly a more sharply worded posture of me against the world might be a losing proposition. No one likes a negative nellie … Continue reading Civil Tone Please?
One of the byproducts of childhood sexual abuse is the self-care piece. It's paying attention to and investing in good health and practices. I am legendary for not taking care of myself, whether its minding what I eat and drink to simple health maintenance. Today I am living with a very specific issue and that … Continue reading Self-care Deficiencies
This year has two stories that have consumed the media, Coronavirus and George Floyd. Important, yes, but deserving of all the attention, no. You see, when you make something THE story you ignore many other important topics. For me it is childhood sexual abuse. This is an anathema for me that it goes unreported and … Continue reading The Latest News Cycle
It saps you of the strength to accomplish anything. Let alone get up off your back and try. I don't have the ability to say more, I am exhausted.
I have never abused drugs or alcohol and never intend too, but I sure would like to medicate these feelings away. If I had some positive thoughts it would be nice, something to look forward to but I don't. My life is pretty much behind me now. Maybe I should look at it like that...whats … Continue reading Don’t Wanna Feel