Summer Fantasy

Things have settled into a steady pace now. My medications seem to be working their magic by keeping me stable and sane. No great expectations but conversely no deep depression. It feels like the best things could possibly be. Maybe its just a beautiful summers day that helps. Maybe it is spending less time thinking … Continue reading Summer Fantasy

Course Correction

My last post was a lament. Caught up in a specific situation or two that I allowed myself to be negatively effected by, I was dragged down and I beat myself up. Perspective can be gained in many ways but time helps and those who speak into your life also make a difference. I allowed … Continue reading Course Correction

New Year, New Hope?

This is a tough concept to consider. There have been decades of pain so what makes you/me think this year will be any different? For me, 2019 had me in out-patient hospitalization, many therapy appointments and the introduction of a few medications for good measure. It had a psychiatrist declare me to be OK when … Continue reading New Year, New Hope?

Wrapping Up

Tomorrow will be my 6th day in partial hospitalization, it will also be my last one, for this stint. The structure has helped, hearing the troubles of others has too. Group discussions have created a sense of purpose by opening up to one another. We are helping each other. There is more help among the … Continue reading Wrapping Up

Only The Shadow Knows

As my case of Bi-polar Depression slogs on, a new medication is being introduced to my regime. This drug is called Latuda. It is an extremely costly drug at $1396.00 for 30 tablets. Fortunately with insurance I am only paying $40. My psychiatrist really wants to try a drug he believes is better but insurance … Continue reading Only The Shadow Knows

Not Safe

When the wounds are deep, no amount of getting away will fix the pain. This must be understood or triggers will be constantly ignited at every little thing. There is no escaping the injuries which lurk just below the surface. No comment is safe, no sunny day is immune. It is the curse of mental … Continue reading Not Safe

The Lost Generation

I'm not sure what the demographics say but I believe that on just about every level of human interaction, it's better to be young than old. The level of concern for children is off the charts compared to that for older generations. Today we will do anything we can to support and counsel a child that … Continue reading The Lost Generation

It’s Gone

There's this attribute of life that I think is pretty important. It's a baseline at which we can fully function and withstand setbacks and disappointments. When we get hit with a bunch of stuff at once we have to be fortified. I call it, "the joy of life." You know what I'm saying? I am … Continue reading It’s Gone